Tonight I am grateful for sushi on the beach, spoiled by a friend … and especially appreciative of the moment she was able to validate what no one else on this coast could have.

I am grateful to have had that wild resonant recognition that this person we both know really is a shit disturber with severe mental health issues and all the red flags that went off in me when he showed up again in my life recently were completely reasonable. I am grateful to be able to notice trauma in my body and to be okay with finding many social situations traumatic. I am grateful to have tools and skills for allowing charged energy to move… new trauma and old.

I am grateful for girlfriends… the various ones that I have… local moms… all different but also all the same in some essential way that ties it all together… a cohesive collection of women that do and don’t know each other and all somehow convince me not to even close to the hermit I would be if I could be if there weren’t always so many pleasant invitations.

I am grateful to be so so thirsty right now after getting lots of sun today…. Grateful for good tasting tap water … and that maybe someday I’ll even have a nice classy delicious healthy rock and mineral filter.

I am grateful for magical rituals and intellectual philosophies that remind me and honor that I am in love with my own scarcity… with the tension of these moments of receiving more bills when I already don’t know how the existing ones are getting covered. I love that I know I love this tightness. I am grateful to recognize that some significant part of me…