Tonight I am grateful for my tender sore ankle. I am grateful that walking to the creek this morning I rolled my ankle, but not the ankle I have always rolled for the past three decades. I am grateful to roll my left ankle on this lions gate… a new era.

I am grateful to have manifested a companion who so intensely mirrors both myself and my kid’s dad. I am grateful for the way I am inspired to be gentle and patient with him. I am grateful for the rare times we are tired enough to let a lot of emotion come up at the same time and our passion is channeled it very fruitless arguing and it is so painful for both of us. I am grateful having these rare experiences with him gives me so much understanding and compassion for how often it occurred in previous relationship where we do continuously overstimulated.

I am grateful to be developing so so so much compassion for humans.

I am grateful for the shut down in my lover today and the not enoughness I feel in seeing him this way. I am grateful for every time I have allowed him to inspire me to experience deep and wide nonjudgment. I am grateful it is conditioned in me to experience not enoughness when I want to inspire him to stay open but he shuts down anyways. I am grateful for all the tricks and tools I have for staying open and that I always coming back to simply asking myself to practice with myself.

I am grateful for the potential that exists when we practice with each other. Borrowing benefits. Amplification.