Today I Am Grateful for My Story of Neurodiversity & Narcissism

Hallelujah Anyways

I am grateful for the magic of presence beyond comprehension. I’m grateful for the way my mind stills now in a way I never really knew before. I’m grateful for the peace — for the relief.

I’m grateful for the relief of grief and the spaciousness that arrives having let old stuck stuff finally move. Grateful to presence myself and witness the emotional expression of cycles finally completing no longer lingering desperate for some external attention that wasn’t there. Grateful to have felt that loneliness and be able to compare. Grateful to have been gaslighted about invisible realms and entities learning to doubt myself and eventually getting back to doubting the doubt illuminating truths beyond basic logic. Grateful for the tears the shaking the howling release of having been humanly alone with so many feelings scorned for innocent honesty — the fed on vulnerability — for others false empowerment. Grateful for the grief that flows from a sense of missed opportunities having been entangled codependent loyal to relationships that kept me lonely in an overwhelm that was a subtle constant friend enabling me to relate to match to belong …to them.

I’m grateful for a current sense of belonging to Source and remembering how I could feel this Home when I would sing as a child. Grateful for my cells all…