Introducing myself to the MEDIUM community

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HELLO .. hellO.. anyone out there?

I am here because I told myself I would be, and I care immensely about sharing our perspectives on every subject under the Sun. I’m particularly interested in outlier perspectives and inside information. I am a metaphysics maven hungry for energy moving through words in a way that urges and urges me to keep going, to stay open, to be in love with this experience on earth right now.

I am here to move energy in a way that feels respectful of my system.

I am here to inquire about subjects that resonate with me and channel the…


Tonight I am grateful for my cat licking my hand and rubbing herself all over me. I’m grateful to type this with one hand instead of two so I can scratch her.. while she’s interested in me.

I’m grateful I started doing a yoga practice recording but something came in feeling super clear so I paused it and recorded that download… and now I am more committed to going to bed early than building my consciousness portal with kundalini yoga.

I’m grateful my companion shared with me today that one of our puppies died… instead of waiting until the weekend…


Today I am grateful for all the stories/articles I have started about subjects I am so passionate and knowledgeable about …. And that I sincerely struggle to be in the high sensation of capturing what it is I have to share. I am grateful I have so many tools for working with this … that sometimes I use and sometimes I neglect. I am grateful to be one is journey of seeing myself and meeting myself where I’m at with both compassion and determination.

I am grateful for the intensity of putting myself out there on the internet with a…


Used to be at the bar, now it’s the cafe

As I line up for my Saturday morning coffee & croissant (at the same place as Thursdays), I ponder why I love this routine so much… even though I’m basically preparing to do cocaine.

My system is so sensitive… to shoot it full of high-quality coffee and incredibly well-made french pastry… f*#k. I am in a war with myself… but that’s another story.

Right now this story is about the reasons I really like being a regular. It used to be at bars, and now it’s at cafes.

Just last week I was thinking… I will go in there and…


Tonight I am grateful for the day that just passed … for the child labor I cashed in on and the joy of my three year old as he vacuumed my car.

I am grateful I was paying attention and caught him as he experimented with what size rocks might work … and grateful I wasn’t Constantly attentive so he had the pleasure of coming to tell me he fed the vacuum some coins.

I am grateful, as always, to return to this practice after an unconscious hiatus.

I am grateful for the pressures of the past month and that…


Tonight I am grateful for too much sun and the cocoon of warmth I’m in.

I am grateful for free veggies. I am grateful for giant salads and yummy dressings.

I am grateful to have a weekend alone.

I am grateful to feel nervous with myself sometimes.

I am grateful for the handbook I just nearly completed for the workshop I am offering tomorrow, FUCK entanglement.

I am grateful I can smell dog poo and better go investigate.

I am grateful that can wait a few more sentences and the windows are all open.

I am grateful for all the…


Tonight I am grateful for a burning candle on a makeshift alter at b’n’b … that’s totally alright… yet also not exactly meeting my aesthetic desires for when I spend a hundred dollars a night to stay somewhere.

I am glad how much I am thinking about money in very different ways than other eras of my life. I’m grateful it is much more flowing … and yet the tight fistedness of fear still lingers.

I am grateful to be connecting with my brother… and to meet with intense and difficult moments in our exchanges… and take breaks from interacting……


Tonight I am grateful for my dad and the various memories arising as he lays in a hospital bed across the country … in what state I’m not sure.

I am grateful that my brother has me to dump his rage on instead of answering my basic questions… even though it leaves me in the dark… maybe the dark is best… maybe that’s how my Dad feels… maybe I’ve been set up to empathize with him right now.

I am grateful I’ve practiced this before… connecting and being with… without physical proximity or phones or gadgets of any sort.

I…


Tonight I am grateful for a flea bite on my elbow that reminds me to just do the things rather than wait.

I’m grateful for the sugar rush of lemonade and ice cream… and that my old habit of late night indulgences is in full swing… perhaps in the high sensation of dreams coming true… I am folding into outdated comforts that are genuinely hurting my body right now and I can’t Wait to lay down.

I’m grateful for beeswax candles.

I’m grateful I got stood up today for an hour, which gave me the opportunity to really notice my…


Tonight I am grateful for the sound of rain surrounding me… ant that it waited for tonight and left me dry while I slept on the beach last night under an amazing star filled sky listening to crashing waves and crackling fire.

I am grateful for steamy make outs after months of not kissing.

I am grateful for a sore back and an available foamy for next time.

I am grateful to have slept through the morning in my own bed and walked downstairs at the exact moment one of my favourite people delivered me a massive incredible tasting breakfast…

Kelsey Jean Marie

electric embodiment expert EXPANSION GUIDE >>>> neurodiveregence & radical compassion enthusiast >>>>> DCFO 30 day challenge >> www.antidoteaesthetic.com <<<<<

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